比尔吉沃特民歌（比尔沃拉克宛如雪花被风吹入锁孔）

比尔吉沃特民歌（比尔沃拉克宛如雪花被风吹入锁孔）我祈求那夏日所应许的就像烈焰使一面镜子分崩离析我渴欲那烈火所狂执的总将万物从它们的皮相中烧裂开来

宛如雪花被风吹入锁孔(外14首)

[美] 比尔·沃拉克

殷晓媛 译

毫无预警的一首歌

我渴欲那烈火所狂执的

总将万物

从它们的皮相中烧裂开来

就像烈焰使一面镜子分崩离析

我祈求那夏日所应许的

忍冬花茉莉与杜鹃花

所熏香的微风

酷暑将感冒磨得犀利

难忘的无数良宵的缱绻缠绵

犹如那些诗章中

你所环绕过的词句

我期冀那水流所盈握的

即使根系深钻的树木

也被漫江洪流连根拔起

我盼望那灰肥与土壤所挽留的

一种温柔将肉体点化为闪电的视觉残像

与毫无保留的酣畅

附原文：

Song Without Warning

I want what fire craves

to hold everything always

to burn through appearance

like flames shattering a mirror.

I want what summer promises

in breezes perfumed by honeysuckle

jasmine andrhododendron blossoms

when heat quickens the senses

during nights of unforgettablelovemaking

like poems in which you

encircle every line.

I want what water clenches

when deep-rooted trees are swept away

by the river’s flood tide.

I want what compost and soil sustain

tenderness turning flesh intolightning’s afterimage

with pleasure that can keep no secrets.

宛如雪花被风吹入锁孔

不要总是将爱拒之千里

一滴雨也有消失时分

与某个飘零的吻一起

淡然飘入沸渭未央的海洋

有时陌生人群

从沉船现场鱼贯涌来

焦灼而枯渴

有时在火灾中灼伤的

幸存者们突然现身

被冷风吹得瑟瑟发抖

你以为自己的麻木

便是故事的终结

但那其实只是身体

经历脱瘾阶段的一种症状

纵使慷慨一生

黑发也终归会褪为玄灰

不要放弃追寻

那信赖你温情仁心的人

爱人们找到彼此的奇妙方式

就像雪花

被风吹进锁孔

附原文：

Snowflakes Blown into a Keyhole

Don’t keep avoiding love.

A raindrop disappears

effortlessly with a single kiss

into the restless sea.

Sometimes strangers

from a shipwreck arrive

parched and thirsty.

Sometimes survivors

burnt in a fire turn up

trembling from the cold.

You believe your numbness

is the end of the story.

But it’s only a symptom

of the body suffering withdrawal.

Even after generosity

turns your hair gray

keep searching for the one

counting on your kindness.

Lovers find each other

mysteriously like snowflakes

blowninto a keyhole.

风止之处

褪下日光

不要捱过又一个漫漫严冬

让钥匙开启那把锁吧

滑开拉链释放那黑暗

积攒羁旅所默许的一切

只有你曾爱抚的事物变得可见

仿佛留在月亮肩头的齿痕

倏忽间它近在咫尺如此不经意间

拖曳记忆纤绳向前

神思便得以漂浮水面在风止之处等候我吧

附原文：

Where the Wind Ends

Undress the daylight.Don’t wait through another winter；

turn the lock into the key.

Unzip the darkness;gather everything the journey allows.

Only what you caress becomes visible

like teeth marks

on the shoulder of the moon.

So suddenly near so suddenly near

keep the memory in tow

and the mind adrift.

Wait for me where the wind ends.

爱敞开双手

只有心灵陶醉于

无网而渔

美横锁万象之门

而灾难则肆意拆卸

久别令期冀死水轻漾

一如欲望之扑朔迷离

但纵深的根系

偏偏围绕岩石掘进

所以最终抵达的客人

令日光蚀缺化为盛宴

美酒与甜点

抚摸伤疤

它将响起振聋发聩的忠告

爱无不凋而慈悲恒在

红尘诸般爱慕闪电

甚于火焰本身

爱敞开悲悯的双手

悲悯是无法清偿

又永生不倦的债务

附原文：

Love Opens the Hands

Only the heart enjoys

this fishing without a net;

beauty locks all the doors

and disaster breaks them down.

Long absence resonates anticipation

like the guesswork of desire

but deep roots grow

deliberately around rock

so that any guest who finally arrives

eclipses the sun becoming the feast

and the wine and the dessert.

Touch the scar and it

will offer some astounding advice:

loveliness fades but not grace;

the world loves lightning

less than fire.

Love opens the hands for kindness.

and kindness is a debt

you never tire of repaying.

与历书有关的疑惧

我将历书翻到

毒蝎翩跹之年

欲念总会失散在博物馆深处

只有讲解员在引述

人体的魅惑

电话铃会停止鸣响

而显示屏上空空荡荡

伐木者将他们的斧头

留在木桩上

这覆灭与毁殆之年

会像一对扑克A幽魂不散

磁层中的变迁

令四季经纬杂乱如麻

曾经的挚爱

最终不过是从你眼前飘逝的

慵懒欠伸的黄沙

你在沆漭大海上追寻

而它的腥膻只让你忆起

一座屠宰场

令人无法释怀的恶臭

你将变成一只

在融化烛蜡中泅游的飞蛾

在闪电烤炙下

你的皮囊早已形同朽木

入殓师的最终报价

听起来像桩好交易

俄耳甫斯再也不会回来

以歌声从地府中

驱逐黑暗

附原文:

Fear of Almanacs

I’ve opened to the year

of dancing scorpions.

Desire will disappear into museums

where docents will explain

the allure of nakedness.

Phones will stop ringing

and screens will go blank.

Woodcutters will abandon

their axes in stumps.

This year death and destruction

will linger as close as a pair of aces.

Shifts in the magnetospherewill cause the seasons to go haywire.

Someone you once loved

will become a yawn of sand

right in front of your face.

You will look out onthe sea

and its odor will only remind you

of the unforgettable stench

of the slaughterhouse.

You will become the moth

swimming in candle wax.

Your body will be outlived

by heat lightning.

The undertaker’s final offer

will sound like a good deal.

Orpheus will not return

to sing the darkness

out of the underworld.

吾爱之躯

脉脉素手

逾庄周之界

盈月之光

苏而化骨血

朱唇芳泽

如酥雨匝地

广走深浸

体躯之迷津

如葱纤指

触神思之莫及

常惊起

迷情若狂

附原文：

The Lover’s Body

May your hands

reach beyond dreams

where moonlight

awakens as flesh.

May your kisses

seep deeper than rain

into the body’s

pink crossroads.

May your fingers

touch the unexpected

always with the thrill

of loving.

戴黑天鹅绒眼罩的女人跪在三向镜前

被缚在蛛网上沉甸甸悬垂的暗夜之下

你那支架般的眼睛

在感官中摸索与香氛关联的一切

期待令你敏锐的肌肤亢奋

即使一阵耳语也能让你

耳垂潮红如渗血的新纹身

你以袒露等待着

宛如大海温柔的浮沫在潮汐线上堆积

消融在细沙的恍惚之中

附原文：

Woman in a Black Velvet Blindfold Kneeling

in Front of a Three-way Mirror

The restlessness of your kickstand eyes

bound under a spider’s weight of darkness

you search your senses for what perfumeconnects.

Expectation excites your sensitive skin

so that a mere whisper causes your ears

to flush red as bleeding tattoos.

Your offered nakedness waits

soft as sea foam that gathers at the tide line

dissolving into the trance of sand.

五乐之诗

欲求，即平地起高楼

素材便是风与通透

它每天都分化出新的房间

四壁明莹如珍珠

在肌肤之域萦纡

知足，即察知

风暴后的静谧

即使那映耀天空的虹彩

最终未能触到地平线

铭记，即不忘

阳光曾沁出的暖意

当某人的藕臂冰臀

第一次与你的肌肤厮磨

安享，即懂得玩味

高潮来临之前

身体那幽微的徘徊

以及当蜡烛之间光芒传继时

时态悄无声息的滑移

爱，即学会维持平衡

像一棵

树冠飞架向四面八方的大树

附原文：

The Five Pleasures

To desire means building a house

made of wind and nakedness

where everyday new rooms appear

with walls whiter than pearls

floating on the skin’s surface.

To be content means noticing

the tranquility after a storm

when even a rainbow never manages

to finally touch the earth.

To remember means still feeling

the sunlight’s warmth where

someone’s hands or thighs

first caressed your flesh.

To enjoy means learning

to savor the body’s slight

hesitation before orgasm

and the slippage between tenses

as one candle lights another.

To love means learning to balance

like a tree that reaches

in every direction at once.

雅典卫城唇彩

你那弹簧小人般跃入眼帘的微笑流转雅典卫城唇彩的光泽

唐突出现在某个梦境的终章

在没有电梯的旧式公寓十五楼的防火梯上

你吉他盒子里装着的月亮

抛向夜色空芜的庭院

你转向我通体覆满萤火虫

我便得以轻咬一口太阳

附原文：

Lipstick Acropolis

The lipstick acropolis of your jack-in-the-boxsmile

appears abruptly as the end of a dream

when from the fifth floor walk-up fire escape

you drop the moon in a black guitar case

into the empty courtyard of night and turn to me with your naked body

covered in fireflies so that I can bite thesun.

成为一条河流

假如终其一生

你都在与虚诈欺诳之人纠葛不休

也就不足为奇

所有人认为你

也是个招摇撞骗之徒

愤怒是你的头号顽敌

妒忌令行动力全盘瘫痪

你仿佛尘埃

使明镜沾染灰暗

你总渴慕一条与众不同的道路

所以趁现在就行动吧

在这个世界上不羁游荡

像人们所迷恋的香吻

掠过那被深深惊艳着的芳体

相爱者相拥

以风与火的躁烈

相爱者成为河流

允诺挟裹着万物入海

附原文：

Become a River

If you spend your entire life

dealing with impostors and cheats

how can you be surprised

when everyone recognizes

you as a swindler?

Anger threatens you most.

Envy paralyzes you.

You’re like dust

darkening a mirror.

You’ve always craved a different path.

So begin now while you still can.

Wander in this world

like welcomed kisses

across astonished flesh.

Those who love embrace

with the impatience of wind and fire.

Those who love become a river

offering to carry everything to the sea.

珍珠只能嗅闻到大海的气息

我已来不及

优柔寡断举棋不定

爱的烈焰只秋波一转

就将我的楼阁

夷为焦土一片

不要令我尝试追忆

与你相遇之前的岁月

因为我已像一粒珍珠

只能嗅闻到大海的韵律

曾经我只是一泓浅溪

向河流的方向涓涓流淌

融入你我变成

深不可测的海洋

曾经我卑微如尘埃

渴求甜吻的滋润

而尝过你的芳唇之后

我仿佛赤诚之风

遍历了世间的一切

附原文：

A Pearl That Can Only Taste the Sea

It’s too late for me

to worry about ambivalence

love burned my house

to the ground

with a single glance.

So don’t ask me to remember

the time before I met you

because now I’m like a pearl

that can only taste the sea.

Once I was only a tiny stream

trickling into a river.

Inside you I became

an unfathomable ocean.

Once I was dust

yearning for kisses.

After your lips

I’m the wind’s nakedness

touching everywhere at once.

香水与闪电

我记得某个夜晚

轻灵飘举

仿佛仲夏的裙裾

每个吻交叠

无痕海面的静默航速

带着灰烬的燎渴

你从床幔间起身

双手将长发

撩向身后

那不挂凡丝之身

冰白如跫音

消失于沙滩之上

睥睨一切

一如香水与闪电

附原文：

Perfume and Lightning

I remember a night

weightless as

a summer dress

when each kiss mixed

the stillness of knots

with the thirst of ashes.

You rose from the bed

and tucked your hair

behind your back

with both hands

and your nakedness

paler than footsteps

vanishing in sand

dared anything

likeperfume and lightning.

超越绝望的狂笑

你终归会意识到

你需要更努力深掘

像一粒横展根系的种子

见缝插针无孔不入

根须在影簇中蜿蜒向前

终于触达阳光流域

总有一天你会成为

那抱恙者贪婪无竭的饥渴

一场灼灼而焚幽晦无光的高烧

一场凝然不动横扫千军的旋风

一朵惬意悬浮尚未长出水面的肉身

而你的笑靥

曾经宛如玫瑰被投入烈焰

如今却生生不息

仿佛超越绝望的狂放笑声

附原文：

That Wild Laughter Beyond Despair

Sooner or later you realize

that you need to dig deeper

like a seed that searches

everywhere spreading

its roots through shadows

before reaching towards the sun.

Sooner or later you’ll become

the patient’s unquenchable thirst:

a fever burning without light

a whirlwind thrashing without movement

a body floating without a surface.

And your smile that was once

a rose thrown into the fire

now will become as inexhaustible

as that wild laughter beyond despair.

陌域守望者

我是光芒酿在蜜中的热切

我是稀释梦魇的催眠曲

在幽邃如眼眶的深巷中

在冰心石肠的潮汐码头旁

我是一个房间在这里 你的一切失而复得

我是拨号音般的肉躯传输着令人谈虎色变的能量

我是袒露者上空盘旋不去的渴盼之手

是岩浆的无眠

我的膝部是一座耸入梦端的园艺工作坊

我是鸟群缀就的稻草人轮廓

是不眠不休的盐的记忆

出于愤怒我创造了风之孤寂

出于恋慕我赋予了雨绵长不宁的呼吸

我是那声嘶喊唯一的新郎

附原文：

The Keeper of Strangeness

I am the light’s fever in honey.

I am the lullaby heard in a nightmare.

In black-eyed alleys

and along tide calloused wharves

I am the room where you find what you’remissing.

I am the dial tone flesh of frightening energytransfers.

I am the expectant hands hovering overnakedness

and the insomnia of sperm.

My lap is a toolshed reaching dreamward.

I am the scarecrow made of birds.

I am the inexhaustible memory of salt.

Out of anger I created the wind’s solitude;

out of love the restlessness of the rain’slong inhalations.

I am the scream’s only bridegroom.

在失落足音的门廊间

在失落足音的门廊间

并没有声响回荡

地毯太过厚重

无人在守候

也从未有人离去

黑暗从最深的影丛中

向外张望

仿佛一座

积满雨水的坟墓

紧锁的窗外

一弯新月爬升

仿佛落空的桨架

在失落足音的门廊间

静谧比时光

更加黏着沉凝

有人轻唤

遥远城市的名字

那里的玫瑰花瓣

便凋落在摊开的地图上

附原文：

In the Hall of Lost Footsteps

In the hall of lost footsteps

where nothing echoesbecause of the thick carpeting

no one is waiting

yet no one ever leaves.

Darkness stares outfrom the deepest shadows

like a grave filling

with rainwater.Through the locked window

a crescent moon rises

like an empty oarlock.

In the hall of lost footsteps

where only silenceclings tighter than time

someone is pronouncing

names of distant cities

wherever rose petals fallon an open map.

本文所有画作为作者比尔·沃拉克（Bill Wolak）所作

作者简介

比尔·沃拉克（Bill Wolak）：诗人，长居新泽西，威廉帕特森大学创意写作教授。近期由Ekstasis Editions（出版社）出版第十五部诗集《赤裸的辩护》。诗歌在百余种刊物上发表。最近一部译著是与MahmoodKarimi-Hakak合译的《爱我甚于他者：Iraj Mirza诗选》（2014年、Cross-Cultural Communications出版）。译作散见《TheSu Journal》《Basalt》 、《国际视界》、《世界诗刊》、《亚特兰大评论》等。评论及访谈见《巴黎圣母院评论》、《波斯文化遗产》、《Gargoyle》、《南方人文评论》、《帕特森文学评论》、《Ascent》、《佛罗里达英语文学》、《第七采石场》及《质数》杂志。曾因在印度访学及旅行获得“国家基金”人文学科津贴及两次富布赖特海斯奖金。2007年，当选唯爱社（美国规模最大、历史最悠久的跨宗教和平正义组织）赞助的驻伊朗友好代表团成员。2010年夏，获得国家亚洲教学财团主办的中国及日本的实地调研名额。四次荣获印度诗歌节代表诗人。2016年荣获罗马尼亚及意大利举办的米哈伊·爱明内斯库国际诗歌节代表诗人。曾参加在意大利佩扎罗举办的佩扎罗国际诗歌节，西昌邛海·“丝绸之路”国际诗歌周，科索沃Ethnofest诗歌节等。

译者简介

殷晓媛：“百科诗派”创始人、智库型长诗作者、“泛性别主义”写作首倡者、中、日、英、法、德多语言写作者。中国作家协会、中国诗歌学会、中国翻译协会会员。代表作有11000行长诗“前沿三部曲”、六万行结构主义长诗“风能玫瑰”、主持“2018人工智能纸魔方”（六国语版）视觉设计 行为艺术项目。出版有第四部个人诗集及第八部著作，被美国、英国、德国、法国、俄罗斯、爱尔兰、新西兰等国一百余家国家图书馆、世界顶级名校图书馆和大使馆大规模收藏。俄罗斯国家图书馆采编部部长T.V.彼得鲁先科将百科诗派著作誉为“横贯当代中国诗坛的百科诗学主义之强流”，多米尼加国家图书馆馆藏发展部部长GlennysReyes Tapia则称之为“博大文化代表、书志编纂研究瑰宝”。